12/29 to 1/29 [new.poem]

-12/29 to 1/29-
(The Month Poem)

we've been at this for a month now
and so far two nights have seen
my pillow tear stained
but
what are those two nights
when put up against all our conversations and laughter
walking through stores we definitely dont shop in at the mall
and sitting in the car laughing about a future together
what are those two nights
when compared to me feeling safe with you
and wanting to try with you
and you enjoying being with me
i want to be with you
despite the tears
despite my fears and
despite my insecurities
im willing to try for you
and yeah i'll get emotional
and throw principle out the window
and yeah we'll disagree about different things
and be on opposite sides of the spectrum
but thats how we'll balance
i have faith in this
and i think that maybe God does too
we've been at this for a month now
and im glad that He saw fit
to allow our lives to cross
1/29/07

...so i freestyle in the shower... [newish.poem]

his moods shift like tectonic plates
crashing into eachother causing earthquakes
that i dont know if i can withstand
so with that i try to stand steady
praying that god wont let this house fall already
i mean- i havent seen all the rooms yet
still having trouble turning the keys in the door
maybe it just takes time
now the comfort comes in knowing
that initially he wanted me
to bring some joy and an escape from solitude
so i guess i have to learn to be steady in the earthquakes
and will my nerve not to shake
cuz this could really be a beautiful union

i wrote this on the 11th...

Cross My Mind...

Happy Christmas Eve!

I had to get that lil greeting out of the way... anyway ive got someone on my mind tonight... seems like he's been on my mind a lot lately. like he really made an impression on my in the time ive known him... i think about this "attraction thing" like is it really worth the struggle... part of me says ehhh probablemente no... but there is the other side that really wants to be someones helpmeet you know.  someone's eve.  but anyway i was just thinking about this guy and how he makes me laugh... alot... *smile* and thats really cool cuz i havent been the 'haha' type of late.  but he makes me laugh so hard that my cheeks and abs hurt.  i just want to keep writing right now... sometimes he asks me if he talks too much when we're on the phone, but i just tell him i like listening.  its nice to hear his voice especially when he calls me.  its nice to know that someone feels that you're worth them using their words on.  maybe i think too deep sometimes.  ehhh... soo much else i could write but my wrists hurt... =( ive already spent too long on this computer.  peace n love

*Nadi

Ribbons [new.poem]

-Ribbons-
she hides scars behind dots
and tears behind scars
and hurt behind tears
continuously cycling
so every so often she tightens her ribbons
thankful for the dots
strategically placed
to hide behind
she always finds something
to hide behind
some shelter to cover her up
so she ends up
jaded
and the world itself becomes quite
faded
so she recites:
the sky is blue
the grass is green
and the trees are red and orange
the sky is blue
the grass is green
and the trees are red and orange
over and over she repeats
just as a precaution
shes being precautious
not giving the world a chance to fade
but she still
hides scars behind dots
and tears behind scars
and hurt behind tears
continuously
cycling
so every so often she tightens her
ribbons...

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